Thursday, April 27, 2006

Avoid The Hurry

I was driving home from work yesterday off in my own little world, as I have wont to do when I am driving, and it suddenly struck me that I didn’t feel hurried. Please note that the term “off in my own little world” does not mean that I was on my cell phone, nor does it mean that I was inattentive to the task at hand. When behind the wheel, I drive. I have even been accused of coming across as “snobby” due to the fact that I don’t always wave back to an acquaintance in my neighborhood when our vehicles pass on the road. Hey – don’t fault me. I’m driving.

Back to the issue at hand: while driving yesterday, a moment of time provided me with the realization that I did not feel hurried. Once aware of this, I glanced at the motorists that surrounded me. It was rush hour, past 5:30 in the evening on a Wednesday. Propelling forward with the assumption that the most common destination here must be home, I imagined that these motorists had evening chores, errands to run, children to kiss, pets to feed, spouses to love, and gardens to water. When compared to life on a lonely crowded highway, who wouldn’t be hurried?

I was not.

I had just left behind my nine to five (okay, on that day: seven-thirty to five-thirty) daily obligation to The Man: he that doth pay my mortgage, as it were. This obligation, without fail, always makes me feel hurried. From the moment that I walk through the door of my office in the morning to the point that I leave, I feel at different times throughout the day that I have forgotten information, misplaced information, haven’t been given enough information, and that I must chase down said information even if I don’t necessarily need it. And to top it all off, I am always in a hurry.

I hurry out of bed, because I hate getting up. I hurry to get busy at work, because if I don’t get started right away, my whole motivation will be thrown. I hurry to answer questions, because that is simply what I do. I hurry myself through proofreading exercises, budgeting tasks, and electronic filing. I hurry to the point of departure, which may end after eight hours or ten – or even twelve occasionally.

Then I hurry home.

Yet on this day, I found that I didn’t feel hurried. I enjoyed the ride. The sun was shining, Van Morrison’s “Tupelo Honey” was playing on my favorite radio station, my sunroof was open, and I can honestly say that I felt blessed at the amount of good fortune that has graced my path through this life. I rejected The Hurry.

I spotted a bird of prey perched on one of the many lampposts that grace the edges of Minneapolis’ crowded highway system. I was able to recall what I friend of mine had said about seeing the same thing on his way to work one day: “That bird was just sittin’ there, lookin’ at all of us like ‘how sad – they can’t even fly’”. Would he be in a hurry to find his prey? Would he hurry to hover over prairie grass? Would he hurry to catch the wind in a lengthy coast to his final destination?

I doubt it.

And so my approach to life was improved upon during that commute time. I headed home to feed my pet, water my grapes and love my spouse. No need to hurry. It was all there for me when I arrived.

2 comments:

Anonymous said...

On your path the enlightenment, slow the f- down. Try to savor your moments. How insightful, Jen.

Anonymous said...

There are some advantages of growing older and at the top of the list is the wisdom that comes with so much experience. When I finally did come to a decision of a career choice in my thirties, that career plunged me into a neverending world of hurriedness and stress on-the-job. Now, in my fifties, I have found a wonderful nursing job that cuts out the hurried part. Good for you that you have now discovered it is best to throw out the hurry whenever possible, because it does allow you to open your eyes to your beautiful surroundings, your loving spouse, and all of your blessings. That's my girl!